My Blog's full of crap
& I don really care
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.Monday, December 10, 2007 ♥ 10:19:00 pm ◘
Anatomy of Regret
Regret.. what makes people regret.. is it the decision this instead of that.. living here instead of there.. or is.. looking at that instead of this.. what regrets have u got?..
my regret.. my life-decision.. example..
bringing things that i shldn't have.. and having it confiscated?..
liking her.. when she was a bore?..
playing this.. even if i knew it was lame?..
that one decision cld have changed your life.. like..
wanting to play the trumpet.. when now.. i'm stuck with it forever and ever.. i've always wanted to play something different.. extraordinary.. not extra..
most recently.. i've had my biggest regret.. in japan.. when i shld've spent all my money.. i saved them up coz i thought they were too expansive.. eaten things i shldn't have.. like too much rice.. i'm slightly unwell now.. eating too many things in my life.. twice have i eaten something that was making me itch.. like prawns and prata together... can make me break-up into a rash.. or.. crabs.. eating them makes my palms itch..
people can never really understand me.. but i make them understand me.. how i'll always stick to one emotion inside.. and never change my outlook to that specific emotion.. like how i seem happy.. when i'm angry or worried inside.. having me as a friend.. you have to expect these things from me.. i don have frequent mood swings.. but i'll change my mood everytime i see someone new.. maybe that's my biggest regret.. making too many friends.. that's why i've made a few enemies from my friends.. & if your reading this.. you're my friend.. coz you do care for me.. and you're following instructions.. or out of your own intuition..
how i'm burdened by the fact that my dream is far from reality.. blocked by that metal wall i mentioned 2 post ago.. MINE.. not yours.. how my wish is at the other side of this wall.. that is mentally indestructible.. physically untouchable.. my wish was never meant for me..
